Escape to Madness: Chptr XIV
Over the next three days, Bellatrix slept very little, sometimes only catching an hour or two every night. Her coronation as Duchess of Mania was a swift one, as no one was over Thadon's passing and Dementia was shocked with the loss of their leader as well. Many accused Bellatrix of both disappearances but Sheogorath quickly squashed those rumors; how, Bellatrix would never know. She spent her days in the House of Mania, speaking with her new court about how things were run and how to behave. 'Lady-lessons,' Wide-Eye called them.
She never paid attention. Her mind was always elsewhere- she never thought that being completely and utterly ignored by Sheogorath would cause her heart to ache so terribly. He had been her closest friend- and to be cut off from him was painful. She was utterly confused by such feelings.
And she began to wonder. She began to wonder if she had been wrong in her harsh rejection. What if she did love him? What if she was just
Escape to Madness: Chptr XIII
A death in the Family
"Please, Val. You gotta wake up."
The high elf did not stir. Bellatrix bowed her head and pressed her face into her hands, tears dampening her palms.
"I'm so confused," she managed brokenly. "Gods Val, I'm so lost. I can't talk to anyone." The assassin lifted her gaze to her friend's pale, unresponsive face. "Not even Sh Sheo. Oh lords, I'm so stupid. So stupid."
Bellatrix pushed her fingers forcefully back into her thick hair and bowed her head, fighting back another wave of sobs.
"The way he makes me feel terrifies me," she muttered then, her voice faint. "Like there's fire everywhere and it's because of him. I don't like it, Val. I don't like being so surrounded all the time. I'm trapped. I flew out of one cage and right into another, that's what happened."
She drew in a forcibly even breath and turned her eyes to the ceiling to try and rid them of tears. Finally she managed to look back to Valania and watched as her friend drew